I actually love to feel so tired that I fall fast asleep at 9.30 pm. Only thing is, i tend to then wake up at midnight feeling it´s morning. Not that it´s a problem. I enjoy being awake in the vast quietness of the night. Reading or writing. Or watching something on my laptop.
I joined Gaia.com two days ago. Been wanting to for a while, but it´s not free, so I´ve been hesitating. But two days ago I just felt dedicated, so I joined, and wow. Access to a big selection of films. Spiritual films, or. Stuff about the brain, ufos, healthy eating, fractals and yantras, just tons of the kind of stuff I love to watch and learn.
We´ve stopped the cable tv package this year. Costs a fortune. And we hardly ever watch tv, really. Time to stream instead. The kids channels are on apps. Dr. Phil must be findable online, as is Long Island Medium. And a bit of soccer for daddy-o.
New times. Dvds; our house is filled with good dvds, but we hardly ever watch them now, as we have Viaplayl. Which is a bit saddening, coz I´ve invested a fortune in high quality kids movies especially. They used to watch their favourite films again and again, and it was ok with me as it was really good cultural texts I didn´t mind them learning by heart. Astrid Lindgren, f.ex. And Miyazaki´s films. Norwegian classics from my own childhood. Mary Poppins. E.T. The Neverending Story. Barbapapa. And so forth.
Been years now, since I watched a good tv series. My favourite ever, is “6 feet under”. Michael Ball, was that his name? HBO. I should check out what´s new in that area. I used to really enjoy a good series. Especially watching together with a good friend who would drop by with a bottle or an ounce, and a bag of crisps…
These days my main use of media, is by far Facebook. A bit of Instagram, a bit of Snapchat. But Facebook. Is a place where I do spend time. I studied media science in uni. And anthropology, and organizational psychology, and comparative politics. The arena of Facebook for narratives and meaning making… to me it is extremely interesting. To see groups form. Over shared interest. Such as criticism towards a political trend. Conversations being created between people who don´t know eachother, maybe they have a friend in common, and meet in a thread openly sharing experiences of mourning, or of parenting… I always wanted to make poster campaigns. Facebook gave me an eternal poster wall.
Music. One of the corner stones of my life, really. I used to buy new albums all the time, spend Saturday afternoons in record stores, listening to big wads of records before deciding on which ones to take home… Played a lot of cds and minidiscs at home. Discovered new music. Went out dancing a LOT. (Pre motherhood days).
Now… I play old cds from time to time. Minidiscs in my garden hut. But same old same old. My husband is a musician, and makes a lot of …noise, haha… no. He plays guitar and piano a lot. So that fills the ether. Plus living 5 people together. Makes the need for sound… vacant. I also use sound in my therapeutic work, when I “sing on people”.
I´d like to get myself a radio, though. Isn´t there still an interesting station out there? I worked at a radio station for 2 years. These days I´m quite impatient with young people who sound like they just want to hear their own voice. I guess maybe I was just as annoying to someone listening, when I was a radio host… !
Podcasts. Want to check that out too. Have listened to a handful good ones.
But I enjoy video more, maybe. Or just listening to talks. Ted talks. Youtube. Abraham Hicks. Guided meditations. Self hypnosis.
I would like to switch focus. From taking in impressions, to making more expressions. Dance more. Write. Sing.
I dream of creating a playlist of great songs. To dance to, and to feel good listening to. Once I have 3 hours of great vintage reggae, world music, pop and rock anthems etc. Then I want to make a 3 hour long visual piece to go with it. And then I want to take these pieces to a dancefloor nearby and invite all my friends to come party with me!
I also want to make more songs myself, and make an album.
And another book or two. Send to a publisher, I think. As the book I self published in 11… I tend to give it away to people. Which is nice of me. (!) But. I need to start making some money now. Somehow.
I´m in the middle of a film on Gaia right now, called “Choice Point”. Inspiring. Says there are times in one´s life where one stands between what Robert Frost called “two roads diverged in the woods.” In between. Neither nor – status. Open. Options.
I feel I´m in such a place right now. I just finished a very succesful election campaign. My party´s head candidate is now the mayor (!). I am… floating mid air somewhere, waiting to see where my feet land. We´re gonna build this party. I´m gonna be having some functions and responsibilities. And influence over some issues that matter to me. At the same time, I´m building my clinic, receiving sound clients. And I would like to write books and make dance parties.
I went to a ciromantic in 2005. A good one. Palm reader. He told me “why don´t you just write? You have the skills. Let that be your priority. That, and mothering.” He also said: “One of your main goals this lifetime, is to develope trust. In Spirit. To rest assured, knowing that you are taken care of. It´s as if they are saying, just do your thing, from within, and we´ll support you, get you headhunted, or fix you some money when needed…”
So. I live by that. Actually. Trust in Spirit. As when he said that, it rang bells inside of me. Recognition of truth. So many times has my life just taken a 90 degree turn in strange directions. Guided by my heart. From finish line to start. Full circle non stop. Growing round and round and up.
Reminds me of one of my favourite songs. From 1967. What a year for music that was! Wish I had been born then. Or maybe I was there, then overdosed or flew off a rooftop on acid or something. To be incarnated again in 1972. Who knows? Not I. (This could be an opening scene in one of the episodes of 6 feet under, haha…)
Magical wonder. Beyond the yonder. Help me rise, help me land softly and blissfully on my flat, lucky footsoles. Show me the doors, the path to choose, the loopholes.
And so it is.
I guess the headline for this post will be something “media use”… I had a one man company once. Called “Kaltwasser Media Freelance”. Wanted to use it for my jobs in the film making industry in Bergen. But then I realized I would not have the right to dole money in between projects. So I deleted the company. These days I´m thinking to make a company again. If I am to go serious about the vocal sound therapy. Media freelance can also cover mediumship tasks.
I consider myself a medium. A channel. For light & love, Higher Self.
I dream of further education in this field as well. My old teacher of mediumship, English Val Williams, the spiritist priest based in the UK. There is this old Harry Potter-ish castle, where she and others do all kinds of mediumistic courses. Trance mediumship, f.ex. Or Inspired Speech. I really want to go spend a week or two there.
Yeah. Money Honey. And plenty of Time. Thank you PlentyVerse for multiplying greatness in my life.
Wei Wu Wei (taoism; action of non action)
The attitude of gratitude
Is the way to go
Don´t worry be happy
Make your passion glow
Focus on the Good and True
Practice sitting silent
Listen to the inner will
So soft and smooth, unviolent.