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I'm a Norwegian woman living on a small island in Denmark with my music man and three young kids. I love writing, poems and songs, and to dance and drum, to read, meditate, to learn new skills, get to know new people. I'm currently studying vocal sound therapy.

An Instrument of Thy Peace

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Good morning, dear blog-readers of mine. 🙂

It´s 07 Sunday morning here now, on this little Danish island. Autumn holiday started Friday. So why awake this early? I´m a B + person, enjoying long sleep-in mornings and long, creative nights with teacups… But. I went to bed 9 pm. So I´ve had 10 hours of sleep. Hence gettting up now is lovely. House quiet, all the holiday people sound asleep for another couple of hours. Alone-time for mama. Precious. 🙂

I wanted to share with you a movie from Gaia.com. One can share film links for free with friends, 3 times every month. Yet the link said it´s expired. Hmmm. It is a film about Highly Sensitive Persons, featuring Alanis Morisette and the author and inventor of the concept; Elaine D. Aron. Wonderful film… Let me see if it´s on youtube, you never know, you know.

My Goodness, YES it IS !!! Here:

You MUST watch this. One in five of us, they estimate, is born highly sensitive. I am one of them. In Elaine D. Aron´s book, called “Highly Sensitive Person” (HSP) there is a lengthy personality test one can take. I did, and I cried my eyes out, as it perfectly described my childhood, feeling different,  alone,  misunderstood.

20% of us!!! So if you are not HSP yourself, your spouse, your child or your friend might be. And they need you to understand them.

Like I said, I saw the film on Gaia.com

I pay a low fair monthly, and that´s the tv I watch. Nothing else. Apart from youtube and Facebook. Basically. On Gaia they have collected spiritual films and tv series. About the unanswered questions we have in life. Mysteries of pyramids and geometry, research into whether aliens have been captured on earth, but to me it´s the films like the one just shared, that grab my attention. And about kundalini, chakras, energy healing, sound healing, mediumship, channeling, documentaries about amongst others Krisna Das, Madam Blavatski, and Yogananda… So when I´m exhausted, my favourite thing is to curl up in bed with my laptop and watch something on Gaia. 🙂

Friday my course in VBS – Visionary Business School – ended. Or. It was the final live q and a – call from Ryan in San Diego. Where all of us 500 students can raise our hand by pressing a button on the screen, and he will coach us 1 on 1, whilst all of us listen…. I never raised my hand, though. I don´t have a business yet, and hence others need the coaching more than I do. I have lifetime access to the course, which contains A LOT of material. So I shall keep studying, in my own pace. Ryan Eliason has my deep gratitude for this course he´s made. Teaching me to look at marketing as a part of being of service. And teaching me most importantly, that business doesn´t have to be a place of competition, greed, manipulation and cynicism, but can be heart based, honest, friendly, co operative and empathic, gentle. Business can be built as a “win win win” (my word, invented NOW. 🙂 ) Where I can make money on providing value to equal citizens, at the same time uplifting our shared ecosystem / human consciousness.

Other than that, I have been headhunted into a company that sells high quality natural remedies for the body. I pay attention when things walk into my life, as I have asked  Source to help me find income. I will try to use these products to practice selling with my heart. Providing valuable information and being unattached to whether the prospect (possible customer) wants to purchase or not. I just want them to have information. The decision is theirs only. And they will decide when they feel ready to do so, not pushed by me.

Other than that, I´m translating from Danish into Norwegian for a Danish ticket system company. Work from home, well paid. Wonderful! And I love to write. Translating between the two languages also teaches me this and that about Danish that I didn´t know. So. I appreciate this job.

Other than that, I´m involved in rewriting the local politics on the culture-sparetime-sports field. Meaning attaining meetings with the council and other volunteers in the local ngos.

And I´m going to organize a big conference, presenting local culture, September 2020. With one local ngo, I´m the leader of. We will start having meetings about this project soon. It seems far into the future, but. It will take a lot of planning. I want the process to be enjoyable. Love brainstorming. And to do something good for my community.

Other than that… Oh yes, a friend of mine is researching into creating a rather exciting concept… if it pulls through, I will be a part of that. Which is quite a big thing. That I can´t tell you about yet. 🙂

Other than all this going on, I still have my 3 little school kids and all their homework, and spare time transport, to take care of. Cooking, shopping, cleaning house and clothes. I wish I had the money  to have an au pair. A nice person who could just help me tidy up and clean the house. That would have been a great help. I tend to not prioritize dusting and cleaning the floors…  Like an adult extra daughter. But then I would need a bigger house too, there is no room here where she could stay. And also, of course, I don´t have the money to pay her either. But. It would have been lovely. Housework is important, and I am not good at getting it done the way it should.

Other than all this, I´m also still the leader of the local green party. We have the mayor, so we need to support her in her work. Meaning a lot of meetings, and keeping an eye on local media, updating our facebook page, our debating group etc. I love this work. Our mayor fellow party member, is competent, authentic, and has integrity. A true joy to co operate with her.

So…. you can see why it is I don´t update this blog as often as I used to. But I will always return, and hopefully life will be less busy in times ahead…. I think I will build myself an online space for healing. Or therapy. For selling information products and services. I´m in the process of finding out what it will take, with the VBS material. On the 5.of December I have a meeting with a Danish guy in Copenhagen, whose course I also bought, about making online courses. So I shall have some good questions ready for him at that date, I´ve decided.

I hope to get more time to write. Morning pages, poems and songs. As well as online courses and blogposts. I think it will all come the way it is supposed to. I accept life as it comes. And I know I´m always lucky. 🙂 Mindset work and affirmations. Love that stuff!

This post became a bit word heavy, didn´t it. We need a song or something, hang on…

I love this song. Especially the lyrics from the prayer of Frans of Assissi, isn´t it? I put this song on high volume in the stereo in the bathroom and sing it in the shower! Haha… Very uplifting and empowering. To a weird and wonderful being like me. 🙂 I gave birth to one of Snatam Kaur´s songs: Mul Mantra. At home, in water. Sweet memories.

(The title of this blogpost is taken from this song´s lyrics. An instrument of Spirit´s Peace. Is what I see myself as being. A lightworker. Helping increase inner and outer peace).

I think with this I will love you and leave you. Hope to connect with you again soon. If you want to follow what I share more frequently, you are welcome to send me a friend request on Facebook. My name is Lene Kaltwasser Henriksen. I also have a fb page for my vocal sound healing: Kaltwasser Vocal Sound Therapy. And I have a page called Kaltwasser Soul Healing Circle. And a fb page for my blogposts as well, where I share my new posts, then it´s easier to know when there is news happening on kaltwasser.dk. The blog´s facebookpage is called Kaltwasser Heart Matters.

Take it easy & take care! Let me tune out with a tune. I love this woman here. Saw her live a month ago and bought her cd, which I listen to all the time. This is the title track of the really good album Enjoy!

&

Ciao for now!

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Developmental Times

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Sunday early morning. Sun is getting up, my bedroom is becoming lighter by the minute here now.

Not sure what to write about yet, just feel I should update the blog, it´s been a while…

School has started, and with 3 schoolkids it´s plenty busy, parents´ meetings with each class etc. Right now my eldest (14) is on her way to Legoland with her class and a visiting school class from Italy! Since yesterday, we have an extra child in the house, sweet Italian girl, until Thursday. She speaks good English, so that´s great.

I´m still in Visionary Business School online, module 10 now out of 12. Life time access, so I´m not in a rush, but soon the live connection with the teacher will be finished and I will be left to myself, and our students´ facebookgroup. I feel a bit overwhelmed by the course. Such a lot of info. About time management, client enrollment and inner game. Being the change, aquiring the mindset needed to get up and make an online teaching space. It takes a lot of courage, and technical setup, as well as creativity to make the infoproducts for sale, packaging them in a good way, then there´s marketing…

We will see. It still attracts me. And if I can build the system, it is a really good investment of my time, as I can build on from there and be anywhere in the world, my workplace being inside my laptop…

On the other side, I´m going on a retreat soon! One week. First time I will try that. It is with my sound healing teacher Githa Ben-David and her husband Lars Muhl. About 50 of us, in the countryside by a lake. Practicing sound healing, meditation, having lectures… from early morning and all day. I have never been away from my kids for a whole week before. But I know this week will strengthen me A LOT. I just know this. I will be supported in my core. Put it that way. So.

Here is a film about my teacher Githa:

Other than this, I have my green party meetings to go to, and my 3 other ngos to meet up with and organize different things, sending emails… And there´s actually also two old friends who have approached me, offering me a business opportunity! Out of the blue. So I will see what these offers may lead to… I have registred my company now. And I´m doing freelance translation work from Danish into Norwegian. Busy-ness is my middle name! Busy busy.

I will juggle all these balls and then put some of them in the ground to root, whilst others I will just let go of. Time will tell.

Yaaawwwnnn…. I fell asleep, watching the psychic medium John Holland in a youtube video. Love that guy. Makes nice tarot decks too.

Just received an sms from a fellow parent in my 8-yearold´s class, reminding me to send out invitations for the halloween dinner we have planned for the class, including parents and siblings…

I think I´ve gotta go downstairs and make myself some strong coffee.

Let´s tune out of this earthy to do list- alike blogpost with a song…

Oh, look what I stumbled upon in my search for “happy song”, seems you get a book tip from Oprah this Sunday morning too! And wisdom from wonderful author Gary Zukav! 🙂

Right. Found this old friend in a list called happy / motivational songs. Shake it! 🙂

Have an ace Sunday. I´ll be back soon as I have da time, yo. Remember to go into my blog archives, there´s plenty of stuff I´ve already written that u can enjoy. Take care now. High five from me here on isle of Fanoe, Denmark.

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Heart Matters is also the title of my book!

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Hello sweet people!

I´ve just gone through comments and replied. Very enjoyable work. Thanks for your comments! I appreciate it. I just forget to check them, but maybe I will get better at it from now on. U never know, u know. 🙂

I was especially uplifted by a comment on my post Pre Dawn, someone loved my poem. And it made me realize that probably very few of my readers know that I have actually self published a book of poems and short prose reflections. In 2011. Its cover is this blogposts heading picture. If you want to know more about my book and maybe even buy it, then on top of my website, there is a place where it simply says “buy my book”. Read more about it there. 🙂

Yeah, I´ve always written poems. Not heavy, hard to understand poems, but more like pop song lyrics, really. I make songs too sometimes…

I also made this video installation, of 15 poems, most of them in my book. 5 of the texts, I turned into songs. I have filmed and edited myself, everything is me in this video. Even the voice singing. 🙂 Check it out! I know the editing rhythm is a bit unusual. But it is a conscious choice I made. I want it to be… meditative. Dwelling. Allow the viewer to sink into the words, the imagery, sink into themselves as they are viewing. Here it is, if you fancy:

Actually, I have lots and lots of notebooks full of poems and ideas, half written stories, lying about. I should publish more. And I would like to make a cd too! But. It´s like, once I have written something, I am finished with it. Then I just want to write something new, or learn something more…

I love the sound therapy work. And to co-create cultural projects. And then there is the green party where I´m one of  the leaders. New local party, we went for the local council election in November, and we got in (not me, but Sofie did), and she is now the mayor!!!!!

So…. I need the days to have more time than 24 hours. And I need to make more money than I do now. That is why I have attended a business school online. I will start a company, and try to… sell online products, use my writing skills, video and learnings of self healing, and see if someone wants to buy my products, or book appointments for sound healing or just conversations… It is not clear to me yet, how it will all turn out, shape itself. But I´m in the process of finding out.

If I can crack the code and be selling information products online, that will free a lot of my time. To do my projects, my voluntary political work, and edit and publish more books, or that cd of songs.

Let´s hope life will be long. And my self discipline strong!

🙂

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Thoughts on schooling

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Dear reader.

It´s Friday, end of the first week of school after the Summer holiday. Now all my three kids go to school, my youngest son is 6 and enrolled Tuesday. He is very happy. So all is well. Apart from getting up at 06.30 am every morning. It´s just not me!

The school hours are set so they work well for the old factory workers´ start of work early in the morning. And science now says that kids, especially teens, need to sleep later in the morning, to be able to learn properly. And they say that “B-people” (Scandinavian term for … sleep rhythm … “A-people” wake up early, fresh, and go to bed early. And “B-people” are more fresh in the evening, and sleep longer.) Well, science now says that B-people are the ones with the more natural daylight rhythm… Don´t ask me to explain why, I just remember the headline. Made me feel good. As a B-person, I´ve always fest second to the A. Haha…

Anyways. Let´s google it. And let´s hope the schools will adapt to the scientific facts sooner rather than later.

In my view, school should also change the things they teach. Instead of history of wars, teach them history of women, of equality, of prison, of racism. Of power.

Teach them psychology, about emotions and how to deal with them, about what identity is. Teach them self understanding, and social anthropology; to understand and respect diversity…

Teach them empathy. For crying out loud. Teach them about creativity and innovation. Brainstorming, mindmapping. Teach them music and drama, painting and dance. Teach them to express themselves and to love. Themselves. So they in turn can offer love to their surroundings.

Teach them co operation and breathing exercises. Tools to reduce stress levels. Ways to communicate wiser. Goal setting. And how to deal with their inner critic. Teach them loyalty. How to be a real friend. How to build and strengthen relationships. And to honor themselves and their inner borders, to stand up for themselves, and for others whome they can see need support.

Yeah.

This is a photo of my son taken in May. In his new hoodie, birthday present from my sister. I will do my best to make sure he feels as resolved and relaxed in five years from now. We all survive our school years, but. They are also tough. For everyone. I´m keeping a keen eye on my kids throughout these school years, working to keep and build trust between us, so they will come and tell me when things get hard, emotionally, for them. I see this as one of the most important tasks I have as a mother. Emotional support.

Other than the kids have started school (again), I too have enrolled. Into this web course I have written about earlier. Visionary business school. With Ryan Eliason.
It is… very… big…? A lot of stuff to learn. Mindset to work on. Inner barriers to break. Very exciting. Sometimes scary. But I do still know that it is the right place for me to focus energy right now. So.

I´m also waiting to receive more translation work, from Danish to Norwegian, the company I worked for in the winter/spring. Which is wonderful, lets me earn money whilst I study this fall.
Earn, so I can pay the course fee! And also, a retreat I´ve signed up for, a whole week in October/November. Masterclass with my teacher in vocal sound therapy, Githa Ben-David.

I´ve never been away from the kids for a whole week before! But I think it´s a fine challenge for us. And my husband has no hesitations, either, so. They will have fun without me, and we´ll get to miss eachother. Whilst I go 100% into “learning and inner growth mode” for a whole week!! It will be very good for me.
I miss my teacher. And this will allow me to catch up with the new things she´s discovered since my exam, december 2015.

Here is a film about her, in English. Made by her husband. Himself also a mystic, author, scholar, teacher.

& If you want to learn more about my work as a vocal sound therapist, using Githa´s method, join my facebook page “Kaltwasser Vocal Sound Therapy”.

Here´s the film:

Anyways. Just a quick hello today, from me. I need to get some breakfast, it´s 12.33 pm!

Big hug! Have a great weekend!
🙂

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Fanø Free Folk Festival # 9 Sat-/Sunday Programme

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Good morning! Here comes the second part of the compilation from Fanø Free Folk Festival # 9. Impressions from 10 of the acts from the festival´s Saturday and Sunday programme.

Part one, from the Friday´s programme, you can check out here: Fanø Free Folk Festival # 9; Friday Programme.   🙂

I also wrote there about how I feel about this year´s amazing festival, and the festival in general. So I can´t really repeat that here. Please read the Friday programme post.

The acts I did not get covered in Saturday and Sunday´s programme, were Western Skies Motel, Simon Joyner and Nicole Hogstrand. My apologies to these artists. Like I explained in the last post, I edited video during the festival, and also needed a couple of breaks off site. I´m sure these acts were as brilliant as the ones I did manage to cover.

It´s actually lucky I got so much filmed, as my phone was messing with me. It´s 2 years old now, and hence ancient and dying, apparently. It recorded until the middle of Faun Fables, last band Saturday. Then just plainly refused to film any more. Said it had no room, though it had 12 giga. I don´t know why it did a comeback Sunday, but I´m very grateful. 🙂

Faun Fables blew me away. The two incredibly strong voices, the intense energy, the movements with the drumsticks and the fiddle, base and guitar… The communication and timing between the two musicians… the storytelling, elements from mythology, theatre, opera… I will most def go to another concert with them if i get the chance. And I have found them on Spotify. I even bought the t-shirt. And had a long talk with them both on Sunday. Very inspiring people. Felt like catching up with old friends. Fellow passionately mellow tribesmen… Don´t know quite how to describe it, but their performance was an eye opener to me on several levels.

There was also American Sarah Louise´s beautiful solo singing… and her duo House & Land… there was the lovely French lady with the harp and the other strange string instruments, there was of course German Limpe Fuchs and her fantastic percussion installation (I never knew stone slates can sing…) There was the cross nordic group of young women wearing masks… and the soothing sound of Calming River from the UK… And the session in the community house ended with an international trio that mixes genres and made me actually dance with the camera! Hence the unstable ending of the compilation, in the last song there.

I´m not apologizing. I simply couldn´t stop myself, and thought I´d experiment with filming whilst dancing… it´s the eternal conflict for me, as I love to dance. But also to film. When to shoot and when to just dance. Is the question. I can see that it wasn´t ideal to mix the two. But until u try, u´ll never know, u know. The sound of the clip is great, so I´ll live with the grooving camera moving. As I always say, I´m far too perfect to be a perfectionist. 🙂 I wish the band had continued that super build up of strings and drum there, I reckon the whole audience had been up on their feet dancing extatically after 5 more minutes of that stuff!

I have seen this handheld tripod thing in a facebook add, where it keeps your phone camera stable as u run, even… It costs a bit. But I reckon it has to go on my xmas wish list.

Anyways. Here is the video. And as I said in the last post, get in touch if you´re in the material and want something edited out. Also, feel free to connect with me on Facebook and Youtube. On my Youtube channel there´s many videos from FreeFolk # 7 and # 8 as well. You find me under my name, Lene Kaltwasser Henriksen.

(My blog also has its own fb page; Kaltwasser Heart Matters. And I have a page for my work with sound healing: Kaltwasser Vocal Sound Therapy. If you are interested, then give my pages a thumbs up and be notified when I post on my blog or about sound therapy).

In the category “Fanoe my home island” on my blog here, you find what I´ve written and filmed previous years from Fanø Free Folk Festival, as well as other words and images from the island.

Already looking forward to FFFF # 10 !!! 🙂

Thank you, all of you, for the wonderful atmosphere and the great sounds. I feel inspired, energized and filled up with good vibrations!

Here´s the second and last of this year´s compilations. Hope u dig!

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Fanø Free Folk Festival # 9; Friday Programme

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Hi there. It´s 02 am & I just woke up after 3 hours´ sleep. Rather peculiar, since I returned from the Fanø Free Folk Festival earlier this eve, where I´ve stayed in a tent all weekend and I slept not quite enough hours. (Understatement.  Friday I went to bed 06.30 in the Saturday morning, and woke up in the hot sunshiny tent 09.30…)!

But ok.  I can sleep more later, I feel very awake now. Energized by the weekend. I enjoy typing away in the quiet of the night, and it is a big satisfaction for me to finally get the Friday compilation loaded up to youtube, as I´ve been working at it since noon! Had all kinds of technical problems. Won´t bore you with that.

It has been yet another simply fantastically wonderful Freefolk Festival. I don´t know which swear words to use, really, to give that sentence power.  The amazing line-up of talent. The atmosphere at the concerts, where the audience really are there to LISTEN even when it becomes late in the evening. The 120 tickets that are sold out every year BEFORE the programme is ready! Coz we all know it´s gonna be great artists, and a lot of the same happy faces that have been there all the 9 years this has been going on… I have written about the festival before, this is my third year to be there as a video blogger, but I´ve been at the festival, I think all the years but once.

Check out the posts from earlier in my blog category here, called “Fanoe my home island”.  This is the 5.time I write about it. Of course there are also videos on my youtube channel, both compilations and longer films of single acts.

This year I have tried something new, I´ve edited video during the festival. Was allowed to use a local friend´s house as a safe laptop keeping base. Hence I could edit a couple of hours here and there, when I needed a break from the music. Because I do need breaks. It is really intense listening, all this experimental  folk, electronica… loop pedals, synths, percussion, drones… artists who use their voice in unusual ways… who mix genres… Fantastically interesting.

And intense. I love intense. But my nervous system needs a breather in the programme, I´ve noticed. And I have talked to a couple of my fellow local-citizen festival guests this weekend, and I´ve come to realize they feel the same way. They too walk away from site to catch their breath for a minute here and there. 🙂 I don´t say this as a criticism, more as a compliment, really. It is not just any kind of easy listening populistic fun fair, this festival. It is for people who enjoy being challenged, to hear something never heard before, to listen to ways of doing things that are not necessarily shaped to please the listener, but shaped to make an expressional effect important to the maker of the message/music…

Yeah, you catch my drift. I´m a huge, huge fan of this festival. I organize my Summers around the date where it takes place, making sure I´m home for it.

Well. About the video. I´m sticking to compilations this year. Because I´m hosting a family party with 50 guests in a week. I don´t have the time to sit and enjoy the editing process. I´m sorry about that. But ok, such is life. It is possible that I make longer films with just single acts in them. For example of the Irish fiddlers´ show in the church Friday. In the compilation from the Friday programme, I have picked just one of their songs, and it is not representative of their performance. I have picked the song because I recognize it, and I enjoy hearing it in this different version. And also it is way quicker for me to edit a set song than to go into deep listening to stretches of improvisations and building up of tapestry, musical thread by musical thread… (borrowed metaphor there, from the Irish gentleman´s own description of their work method)…

Same with the other artists. I have made fast decisions, and just present short appetizers from the programme. Two of the Friday concerts are not represented, as I didn´t see them. These acts are “EKKO & The Syrian Roots”, (DK/SY) and “Fru Skagerak”, (DK/NO/SE). My apologies to the artists. I´m only human. And I do my best, sincerely.

I have edited it “as short as I could”. But one clip I just could not shorten. So they got 9 minutes out of the 19. That´s a  freedom I give myself as a blogger; to spend extra attention on the acts I love the most. But like I said, there are many of the acts that deserve longer films, by themselves, and maybe I get the time to do some of this after the summer holiday.

The reason for making compilations, for me, is really to make like a string of pearls where we get an impression of the programme as a whole. And hopefully also an impression of the lovely atmosphere in the room during the concerts. The listening audience, often lying down on the floor with eyes closed. Little children, and a dog or two. I feel so happy there.

I haven´t filmed from the tent or tables outside this year. I have done this in little glimpses in earlier compilations. I like to share in a personal way, but I don´t share what feels private. So although it is nice to see happy people partying, enjoying conversations and late night jam session or folk dancing on the festival site… it is kind of private, backstage, intimate moments.

I always try to present people so they look good. And if I´m in doubt as to whether they´d be ok with a clip of them becoming public, then I don´t use that clip. To me these are essential balances to keep. The respect for those whose images I catch in my fishing net / the camera. To treat people with care and integrity. Being trust worthy. That is a status we earn, through our actions.

I go to the task of video documentation with humbleness and gratitude. I know these are words seldom used in everyday language, but. Hey, this is my blog, I have my permission to express  myself freely, experimenting with phrasing and openness any way I feel like … Like all my fellow, free flowing freaks … 🙂

Freak said in the most loving way. Weird is wonderful!If everyone would allow themselves to be authentic, unafraid to stand out and be different from peers, parents and co workers… well, then this world would simply be such a much better place!   🙂

Until this becomes a reality, I´m so lucky I have our festival to go to, this one weekend a year. Thank Goodness for this blissful oasis of friendliness, fun and so many freakily fantastic feelgood factors! (F.x. the amazing vegetarian buffets and the midnight snacks. I LOVE it)!

Here, hope you dig. The Friday programme compilation. Any comments are welcome, and if anyone portrayed in the clips want something edited out, don´t be afraid to contact me and say so. You find me on Facebook/messenger most easily, under my name, Lene Kaltwasser Henriksen.

Ciao for now, and I´ll be back with a compilation of the Saturday programme as soon as poss. I only filmed glimpses from 3 of the acts today (Sunday), but if the recordings look fine, I´ll include them in my Saturday compilation piece.

Best wishes!

Lene

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Baby care in my single mother years

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Hello this … Thursday … morning. Half past 09. But. Still sleepy morning in our holiday rhythm here. Where kids get to bed 10-11 pm. Once the sun is down…

I´ve been asked in a comment if I can write something about being alone with a newborn child. Very good suggestion. And I should be able to, as I was a single mother with my first born daughter, from pregnancy until she was 2 and a half.

It was a shock to have the first child. I think it must be for every mother. A mother is born as well as a child that day. I remember saying to my aunt, that it felt like having my heart taken out of my body, holding it in my hand, knowing that from now on, every moment, I have to look after this inner organ first, before I tend to the rest of me. 🙂 Everything else goes on hold. Espccially when you are the only caretaker in the home. Forget about that sleep. It has to wait. And clean the house?! I had a girlfriend help me go shopping. She bought foodstuffs to cook with, and then instant energizers such as yoghurt. So that I after breastfeeding could get some energy in me, so I could face the work of cooking…

It was hard. My daughter had colic. Every single day from 0 to 3 months of age, she would cry and scream and cry. I had to lay her down on our bed some times, leave the room and go into the other room of the flat, to get half a minute´s time to breathe. Fantasies on throwing the baby out the window, thank Goodness I had read this is normal, or I would have felt extremely frightened and guilty by my own thoughts and feelings in those moments…

Well. Once she was 3 months old, life became extremely peaceful. I could actually sit down in the evenings with her, instead of walking, carrying her, hour after hour. We had a cat. He´d been born same date as my daughter, in my flat, one year prior to her. He would lie in bed with us whilst we were breastfeeding, holding one paw on baby´s head and the other paw on my shoulder, spinning, watching over us. So sweet.

I felt with my newborn, like a lion mother. This was the image that came to me, in the hospital, I remember. Just so protective, and filled with new, or blossomed, instinct, to protect, to make sure everything´s okay around us… I felt to be in the innermost corner of a cave with my child, the most safe place, undisturbed by aggravating noise from half present, unaware people, talking about things that don´t matter. Chit chatter.

Well. I became a mother, all of a sudden, and. Though it was hard, it was also the best thing that had ever happened to me. I was needed, and important, now a leader. Deeply loved. We were twosomeness. Communication. Emotions. Empathy. These “things” that mean the most to me. Now it all came in handy, not just burdens of my personality, standing out as weird and misunderstood, but central character traits in me that were a blessing, and a need, for my child.

We did everything together. Were everywhere together. Of course. We spent a weekend a month at my parents´, who lived 3 hours further down the west coast of Norway. But even there, though we had company, it was still me and her that were connected at the hip, so to speak. Because I was her world. And she was mine.

It just felt natural, to be honest. I got used to managing things alone. For example I remember being in a cafe with her on my hip, big babychair in the other hand, and then pushing a door open with my elbow and shoulder for us to get through. Some stranger came rushing to open the door for us. Only then did I realize that I could have asked for help. But in a home with a baby and only one adult, there´s no one to turn to. So you get used to just fixing everything moment to moment, as best you can. And you realize that you´re capable of fixing the strangest, most difficult stuff, with just one hand, baby on your hip. 🙂

I had a beautiful baby basket hanging above the foot end of my bed. The bedroom was small and the roof slanted. She slept there a couple of half nights, but I realized that I took her up to feed her in my bed after a couple of hours anyways, so she just moved over into my bed and we used the basket for swinging in the daytime. We also had a jump harness.  I strapped her in, it was attached to the ceiling, I put on some happy music and we danced and jumped about together, every evening for months and months.  Laughing and joking. Very fond memories.

We created routines together. I had not been much for routines before her arrival. But with my daughter came a set rhythm of mealtimes, playtime, let´s go for a walk-to-the playground-time… Every morning started with us going downstairs to let in our beloved cat, Puma Pyjamas. (He was orange and grey in sand beachy stripes, looked like a pyjamas when he was tiny and thin inside his skin…) As an adult, he was a strong, half Norwegian wood cat, very handsome and extremely gentle and loving. I remember one time, my daughter was crawling after him to pet him / pull his ear, and he leapt up and left just before she reached him… he did it once, twice, three times. The toddler just thought it was a game. He was tired after the long night outside. Then he sat down, mid floor. My daughter crawled over to him and pulled his ear. I could actually see on his face he was fed up. He lifted his arm, claws well pulled in, and hit her one on the top of her head!! She stopped in her tracks. Didn´t cry. But I could see the message was clear. No more! Stop this! She never chased him again. Nor pulled his ears. Big brother had spoken and she got it, loud and clear!

It was amazing to be the three of us. Puma was also very useful in teaching her empathy. To be careful. Noticing others´needs. Every time she approached him, for weeks on end, I´d say “careful! A-aaah….”, showing her not to pull at his fur, but to pet him gently, helping her practice stroking his back, until she had mastered the gentle touching. Then one day she was crawling towards the edge of the bed, I shouted “Careful!”, and she immediately replied “A-aaaa”, and stroked the bed gently! Hahahaha….

I remember once we were in this church, where they had organized playtime for single parents with kids. They had this massive floor space with toys, and they gave free lunch at the end of the play session. We had to join in the singing of some christian songs, but I could live with that in exchange for some social hours with other adults! Plus my daughter was too young to get the fear inducing lyrics of some of the songs.

Point is, one day there was this Russian mother there with her twin sons. She spoke no Norwegian and hardly any English. She was clearly exhausted, and the boys were acting out, very hard to keep up with. All of a sudden one of her boys had scratched my daughter so she was bleeding from quite a deep scratch on her nose! She cried, and I comforted her. Then the Russian mother came over and was so upset, apologizing in her very limited English…. My daughter, age 18 months, looked at her and went over and gave her a long hug!! The Russian mother teared up. I shall never forget that moment. I realized my daughter´s empathic skills were top notch.

What more can I say… I just always followed what felt natural to me with my kids. Followed their lead in many ways. Gave them what they needed. Breast fed for years. Carried them. Shared my bed with them. Still do some times, and they enjoy sleeping with each other. Tons of free quality time to be gained from co sleeping. Helps us all feel connected, safe, emotionally secure and loved. Actually people who co sleep also move in and out of REM sleep together! I´ve read… I also read that my natural instinct methods are probably aligned with what they call Attachment Parenting.

Gave them what they needed. Not what they wanted. Not sugar, and too late bedtimes. Not every toy, and candy when we´re out shopping. One of the most important words to teach them, is “no”. To accept it and move on with grace. A gentle no, but a solid one. Followed up by “when mommy says no, it´s no”. Until that second sentence is no longer needed.

A “no” that comes as rarely as possible. I only use it when it is necessary. If I can, I say yes, or “maybe later”. I stretch for my children´s will, and that has the nice consequence of them stretching for my will, too. What I show them, they copy. They are so eager to co operate, it´s very moving. All they want is to be seen, understood and loved as they are. And leading by example, I receive the same from them, they try to understand me and love me as I am.

Apart from the magic of a steady, rare, but calm and solid “no”, there is the word “thank you”. Very important word. And then “I´m sorry”. Once there´s siblings, especially. “I´m sorry” doesn´t necessarily mean you did something wrong, but the recipient of what you did, feels hurt by it somehow. So you just say “I´m sorry”, because you did not mean to hurt her/him. I want this phrase to come automatically and easily, like it does from Brits in the supermarket. “Oh, I´m sorry” they will say if they bump into you whilst reaching for the milk. I like that. It creates smoothe social interaction, and stops friction. People need respect.

Another word that is important to teach them, I realized once I got the two youngest children, who are only almost 2 years apart… is “STOP!” Not necessarily shouted, but said very very clearly. And then followed up by a parent looking up, saying “She said stop! Did you not hear it?” if the behaviour continues. And then if still no respect, to walk over and remove the non listening child and say “It is very important to stop when someone says stop, because you also want your sister to stop when you say stop to her. If you don´t stop when she says it, then she will also not stop when you say stop.”

I mean it. I have used short explanations like this again and again, for phases uf their upbringing. It took ages before the youngest would stop biting his siblings! For example. Doesn´t make him evil or stupid. Makes him natural for his age.

Bad behaviour that can be ignored, I ignore, and it stops. Good behaviour gets tons of positive attention, and hence is strengthened. And then there is the biting etc. Which, before “stop!” can be used, is handled by taking the troublemaker, sitting her/him down and looking into her/his eyes, our eyes level, saying “no”  in a basetone voice. They get it. From day one.

Then follow up with “Look! She´s crying! Pooooor so-and-so… That hurt!”

Empathy is a learnt character trait. Scaringly enough. These days with kids going into institutionalized care from 8 months of age…. who teaches them this one on one coaching that they need, to learn empathy and respecting others? It takes so much time and close attention. It CAN NOT be taught in a big group to the level it can in a twosome adult-child constellation.

My kids started kindergarten age 2. I could then feel they needed more stimulation than I managed to give them. They were safe and sound, ready to explore wider horizons. Great! They have all had half day care only. 9am to 1pm. And when I picked them up, they were tired and needed to come home and rest. Their ears, eyes, minds. Life in a big group of peers and adults is stimulating and fun, and also stressful, demanding.

So now they are age 13, 8 and 6. My youngest starts school after this summer holiday. I will really miss walking into the kindergarten in the mornings, greeting all the children there, having conversations with them all, learning their names. I love children for their openness, honesty, vulnerability. Loving hearts. Trust. Laughter. They are my favourite kind of people. 🙂

I think I will have to find a way to work with children. Not as a teacher in school, but. Maybe through the sound therapy or hypnosis. I don´t know yet. Time will tell, though. I rest assured.

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Manifestation Time

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Hello there, from my flying carpet, as I have started calling my beloved double mattress on the floor. 🙂

Summer hols mode, my young kids (6 & 8) went to sleep as late as 11 pm, poor little mites. We spent the whole day in Esbjerg Museum of Fishing, with the aquariums and feeding of seals and. Nice place. Picnic on playground. After a quick coffee / icecream to end the session, we went to a BILKA (mall) and lo and behold we found a cheap bicycle for our little boy. He needs the next size up. We have inherited and old one, but it will take both money and working hours to get that one running. So we got this new one instead. Demo model. Last year´s fashion. Hence cheap. Perfect. 🙂

I´m very excited and busy these last few days. My new expensive course has started. Ryan Eliason´s Visionary Business School. (Plus another one I also enrolled in, a pilot project hence not so costly, by Malene Bendtsen. Also very interesting).

I have so much to learn! It is quite… I won´t say overwhelming, but. One thing is the technical stuff I have to learn, about platform and funnels and. But then I will have to learn to love marketing. And using myself as my brand. Or. To be the change. Which involves working on mindset. Which is not new to me, I am a trained hypnotist after all. And have done a course with John Assaraf as well, and listened to Esther Hicks for years…

But. Still. Revolutionary success.  It takes all my courage. My mind brings on waves of doubt, fear… And my homework is to present my purpose, mission and vision…! In our facebook group, with a team of coaches cheering us on, giving feedback…. Fuck, I´m loving it! I´m scared by it all, and I´m loving it immensely at the same time. Just like the teacher predicted. I´m in good hands. Of this I feel certain. And when that part is certain, all is well, really.

So I will be doing intense studies this autumn. On several fronts, but all shedding light on the same issue; the digital economy of online teaching.

Learn to integrate all my passions, life experience and education, into sellable packages of information, as well as services like conversations, sound therapy and with time hypnosis. Can´t wait to get to understand how the … to create this!

But I have to take a break from the studying the next 3 weeks. As we are approaching the date for my eldest daughter´s confirmation. 60 guests in the community hall. Hired chef, got a speech to write… tablecloth and table plan (who sits where) … the full monty. She confirms her choice of not belonging exclusively to the church/christianity. She believes in Jesus AND Buddha. And wants to keep an open heart and mind, doesn´t feel ready to choose to belong to only one religion. So. I have had conversations with her throughout the year, about human rights, humanism, sexuality, growing up in general, different spiritual practices… we have been together at a fullmoon ceremony on Bornholm (island east of Denmark) with a shaman from Greenland. And we have been together for a workshop about the healing power of sound. Tibetan singing bowls and vocal sound therapy. In a church.

So now it´s time to do the last preparations. Write the speech. It will come. I expect to wake up in the middle of the night soon, words running in my brain like a river.

(Right now she is actually in South-Africa with her choir, and they won gold in the World Choir Games!!! 60 young girls. BRILLIANT conductor / choir leader, a lady. It is just. UNbelievably wonderful and touching. Tomorrow she has breakfast at 6 am and they go on safari! Imagine being 13 years old and receiving such an experience. I am very grateful for her. And proud. She has been working hard, they didn´t get gold for free, so to speak, they have worked real hard, on the songs, and practicing African choreography dance moves… It has paid off. It is a most wonderful life experience for her).

I´m also about to renovate a room in my house, by the way! My goodness! It has to be emptied of stuff first. I don´t have a clue where to put it all, even! But. I will do that before the big party. So that my family members who are coming in from Norway, can help me continue the process of getting it renovated.

I am exhausted just thinking about all of this!

Watched my video installation tonight, that I made for an exhibition in 2011. It is actually rather good for slowing down my breathing… A meditative tempo in these 15 texts of mine, mixed with visuals and 5 of them also with a melody. I´d like to do more videowork like this. Slightly better quality technically, but this was before HD, it´s shot on dv-tape, 16:9 format.

Anyways.
Yeah, I just wanted to check in on you here in my blog space.
Check in on myself at the same time. I do love to reflect on my reflections. 🙂 Gives me inner calm to express my thoughts and emotions in writing. Found out recently it´s called scripto-therapy! Done it all my life. Journaling.

It´s kind of hard for me to write about stuff other than what is filling my heart. What matters to me on heart level. Coz those heart matters do matter, the most, even. To me.

In a couple of weekends I´m gonna go blogging, from the Fanø Free Folk Festival, as I do every year. (Or. It´s the 3.time I videoblog about the festival, but I´ve attended it for 8 or 9 years, from it began).

So then there will be some great gig clips to be seen here. On my youtube channel (in my name), and then linked in here, in blogposts.

This said, my arms are a bit achy after too much typing lately. So let me go to sleep oh my God it´s almost 01 am!!!???!!!

Feel to leave u with this lovely tune. Enjoy and good night, friends. Lots of love from me here on my flying carpet. 🙂

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Requested Update :)

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Dear reader.

I received a comment today, a notification in my emailbox. A reader said she´s noticed I haven´t updated my blog for a while, and was wondering if I wasn´t going to post again soon? 🙂

That felt really good. I actually do have a reader! There are so many spam comments I have to erase, and when I share my posts to my blog´s facebookpage (Kaltwasser Heart Matters), normally I get very few, if any, likes.
Not that I blog for the likes. I blog for my own pleasure, and for the joy of sharing. But it´s still totally motivating to receive a comment from someone saying they miss my posts! very much appreciated indeed.

So. Here I am, updating. The reason I´ve been rather quiet lately, is that I´ve been busy intensively researching the field of online teaching. I have watched I don´t know how many webinars, received free e-books and video series, checked out loads of different people and their models for turning passion into profit, as Rasmus Lindgren puts it. I´ve bought a course from him, on “how to create amazing online courses”. He has positioned himself to be top notch in Denmark in this area of knowledge. The course is good, but a bit…. well, I need more. Both knowledge, and a wider model, more into depth on mindset, time management and client enrollment. So I have made a serious investment into something that looks rather splendid. Visionary Business School, with Ryan Eliason. Wholistic, idealistic, practical, and teaching from his own business experience. He started an ngo called “yes” in the 70s, Youth for Environmental Sanity. He is also a trained hypnotherapist, like myself.

So I´ve received his launch over the last 2 weeks; 4 videos, a book that i read in 5 hours and could not put down… and webinars, a manifest, a mindmap… I trust this guy. I am dead excited to be starting this training in July. For 5 months.

Other than the research, I have been busy getting a lot of rest. And snapchatting with my lovely good girlfriend in Norway. We send eachother video monologues, almost daily! And as I type here now, she is actually in her car, driving towards my house! Gonna visit me for the first time here in my home in Denmark! What a gift. Her presence, such a present. 🙂

I will show her this paradise island, in all its picturesque summer glory… I´m picking her up at the parking lot by the ferry on the mainland side late tonight. Costs a fortune to take the car across, so. I bring a trolly and we load it with her luggage and have a beer on the ferry deck those 12 minutes the ride takes… then, a five minute walk from the harbour, there´s my home. This old post office from 1789. Straw thatched roof, and with half moon shaped “Fanø windows”… cobbled streets and lots of high quality little shops. Best butcher´s in Denmark, bakery, ice cream, glass blower´s, cafés, women´s clothing, knick knacks, galleries… Yeah… I love this place. I really truely do. It relaxes me. I feel at home here like I never did anywhere else I have lived. (Different places in Norway, on Anglesey off the coast in north Wales, in Bahrain…)

We need a song to break up this rant!

I made this film, and recorded him singing. He´s a friend of my husband´s, a local, multitalented musician. The quality of the video is grainy, but. I must have accepted a low resolution from youtube, coz I shot it in 16:9, if it wasn´t HD, this was in 2014 or there abouts…

We did it as part of our app “Fanoe Nordby Byvandring”, which still can be found in the Android version. Apple version needs some technical adjustment before it can be accessed again. Aaanyways.

(We have a facebook page for it, called Fanø AppTeam, if you want to learn more about it).

I think I will stop here. As I have to get ready to go pick up my girlfriend. And on the way there, I will drop by the corner bar, Hjørnekroen, as they have an “old school dj” there tonight, playing hits from the 70s and 80s! Never experienced such an event here before, so. Curious as I am, I have to go see what it´s all about. 🙂

I´m very grateful for the comment from you, dear reader. Please always feel free to leave me a comment. Writing is a lonely job. It feels nice to know there is someone in the receiving end, who even appreciates my wordplay.

Here´s one for the road, be happy out there in the sunny shine…

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Fanø Vesterland: Sweet Festival!

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This weekend I went to the Fanø Vesterland festival. Like I have done a couple of times before. Always a nice time to be had there.

It´s down at the harbour. Two whole days of good music. Tons of happy people milling about. On the very creatively built festival site; with a huge dream catcher hanging from a crane, and. A champagne bar, lots of good local pop up restaurants selling anything from lamb, to oysters, to fish and chips as well as barbecue and fries…

Here´s a picture of the champagne bar. Placed in a corner, a bit secluded. Nicely quiet spot in the festival hustle and bustle.

Beneath you see Fanø´s OysterKing doing his work. He´s created a recipe book, one can go with him for oyster safaris on the island. His name is Jesper Voss. On www.visitfanoe.dk one can find out what time he takes people out for oyster trips. (some times there is too much pollution to eat the local oysters raw, sorry to say. You find all the info with Jesper, though. He makes sure to keep it safe).

I ordered 3 different oysters from him, and a glass of champagne. What a treat. Pure deliciousness. 🙂

There was even a view to the big stage, from my table. I could have stayed much longer in that quiet corner with a view, if I only had the dough for a bottle of champagne and more oysters. Haha!

View to the other side from my table:

Here´s a couple more photos from the site:

(We did have sunshine early in the days, both Friday and Saturday)

Atmosphere was very friendly. Relaxed and easy.

Well. Instead of still photos of the musicians, let me share with you the video compilation I´ve made today, out of the bits and pieces I filmed during the weekend. Hope u dig.

I was lucky to get a free bracelet for this year´s festival. As my husband´s son plays the keyboard in Wangel, the band that played the opening act this year. (Kasper played a couple of years ago as well, with one of his other bands, The Grenadines. I remember I filmed them, in the rain. It´s on my youtube channel somewhere, as well as a couple of videos from gigs  in 2016.)

I look upon my festival videos as some kind of a “no frills, bootleg recording” kind of style. Handheld, phone made, spontaneously documenting more than elegantly presenting, the acts. I tend to shoot stills or record when I´m touched, or enthused. When I feel the joy of music making, going on between the musicians (and the audience)… then I want to join, to play along. Catch the energy.

The atmosphere. The… Love. I guess. Basically. Movin´with the groovin`. Sharin´ in the Good Vibes, yo. Aligning. Participating. Being in the Sound scaping. Yeah. One Love, One Frequency. Peace. (Yes, call me a hippy. Why would I mind. They stopped the Vietnam war, for crying out loud. Time we stopped accepting the American effort to weaken the peace movement by calling the participants hippies. Hips are cool. Or hot. Whatever your preferred lingo is). 🙂

Music is all about e-motions. Energy in motion. Art is all about emotions too. So is religion, and politics. So. Let´s just be whole hearted people. If the only word for this kind of (human-) being, is hippy… Then call me that. I´m all for peace and love. Who isn´t?

(Yeah, and what are they called? The war mongers. Why don´t THEY have belittling namecalling attached to them? A fair question, I reckon. Aaaanyways. Moving swiftly on).

My goodness, I have really improved my steady-hand-cam since then, man! (And very annoying with the people talking in the background, right in front of a quiet, intense stage act… I remember I had very good footage of one of her songs, yet had to throw it out due to talkative festival guests standing behind me. Sorry, but I find it rude to be talking loudly at a concert. Or in the cinema or the theatre. Why not respect those who have bought tickets, and go chat somewhere away from the stage?!)

Oh, here´s the Grenadines-shot: (It was in 2015)!

Windy. Is that why the sound´s shaky? Possibly.

Anyways. I can see from these old recordings, like I said, that I have gotten better at shooting and editing. Which is due to the festival that each year allows me in for free, to blog. Just because I asked if they´d let me. It´s an incredibly cool festival, in Sønderho, happening each July, this year will be the 9.time. The Fanø Free Folk Festival. International, experimental folk (and electronica, in my own understanding of genre labeling). Some acts are world music inspired, many bring loop equipment, home made wooden instruments, building up trance beats…

But that´s a different story. I look forward to Freefolking it again, a weekend in July. And I also look very much forward to Fanø Vesterland again in a year. If I´m home, and if the energy in motion (e-motion) grabs me and grips me, I´m sure I will be shooting video from Fanø Vesterland again.

As it is so In Joy – able. 🙂

 

 

 

 

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