Hello. From my straw thatched little home in the Sibirian storm. Our ferry only sails at tide these last 4-5 days, as the water has turned into ice. Wind bites one´s cheeks the moment one steps outside. So I avoid that. And spend the days under my duvet in bed, with my laptop and snapchat, having long threeway conversations in form of video monologues with to close girlfriends I have in Norway.
I dream of going on a retreat in the Himalayas. Copying wise text, meals served, meditation and contemplation. Without the circumstances present to do such a thing, I form my own form here, watching spiritual films, finding free meditations of hemi-sync and feminine astrology full moon meditation… Travel through my headset into those inner retreat waters…
I just watched a videotalk on tantra by Paul Muller. So I checked out his bluethroat yoga on youtube. Found this:
My February has also consisted of 3 special social gatherings. First a long weekend in my Norwegian girlfriend´s home. Together with four more of our common girlfriends. 6 of us. First time we ever spent days together under the same roof. Though I have lived together with one of them for a year or so… It was just. SO so nurturing? Just being relaxed and joking about, being understood, having serious personal conversations, thn dancing to the anthems from the dancefloors of the 90s… eating another meal, getting drunk, dancing more… wow. wow. wow.
It really truely strengthened me so much. To feel I am part of a tribe, somehow. People like myself. Who get me. And know me from my student days, my twenties. It really expanded my … roots … ?
Then, two weeks later, I met up with fellow sound healers, for a workshop ending in a sound healing session in a small stone church! We were four. Two of them I had never met before. Slept in one of them´s house. Such a wonderful both workshop and “concert” with intuitive singing, and teaching Githa´s “the note from heaven”. I recorded the sound, and took still photos. I´m editing it and going to put it on Youtube. I will share it with you once it´s ready.
One week after that, I had asked my husband to take the kids and thye could go somewhere over night so I could invite friends over for a birthday party. Which he immediately agreed to, with a big smile. He is amazing at supporting me in what I feel like doing for myself. Deeply appreciate his support and acceptance.
So I invited 11 people. First time I held a party in the soon 11 years I´ve lived here! Because we´ve had young children all this time. Well. I prepared stuff for tortillas, humous, bean stew, fried chicken, fried squash and mushrooms… chopped vegetables, salsa, garlic creme fraiche… you know.
And then two guests brought cake. And I played cds, and in the guest room I played vinyls, and we danced.
A wonderful gathering of authentic individuals, all capable of listening to eachother. Very nive atmosphere.
I drank too much. Alas. Not getting sick, but. Mixing beer, wine and then the gin and tonic. I think it was just one of them I had. I must learn now that it doesn´t fit my brain. I get blackouts and remember only glimpses. So annoying!! So I shall stop the mixing. If I want to drink gt, it will be that and only that. And not too many of course. Beer is best for me. Then I can enjoy amounts of liquid, without losing control of intoxication level, all of a sudden being a lot more drunk than I had planned to be…
Anyways. Hopefully this 46. year will be the year where I realize my limitations when it comes to alcohol consumption.
So this February Hibernation Space has been both outward going and inward going. Plane to Norway, strengthening bonds of sisterfriendships or what to call it. Car to unknown address on Fyn, being in sound in a group of 4 and then bringing it to an audience… and then home alone, inviting chosen individuals, just a few so there was room for every single person to be met properly by everybody else present.
And then this Siberian Storm. Forcing me to stay indoors almost a week, feeding my soul. As the full moon is in pisces, so how perfect it is to have been in increased meditation frequency… (I´m a piscean as well…)
Let me see if I can find a good astro weatherforecast talk for us, hang on. Oh yes, I love this man here:
I have been in a crises as well. Very furious… It is resolved now. I´m not going into this here and now. Maybe an other time. But even I do have private chambers. Just because I´m very open and personal about things, doesn´t mean that I keep nothing private. Spring cleaning, Timothy says here. “Unease, dissatisfaction. Calling our awareness to make changes.” Yup. Got the t-shirt. 🙂
Let me share a couple more inspiring videos, and then I shall lay myself a tarot, I think. Bought this new amazing deck on my trip to Norway. “The psychic tarot of the heart” by John Holland. Oh my Goodness.
I have a few decks. Have used tarot since… my twenties. This deck here, I feel is only for me! I will not use it to give others readings. This thought to me, is a completely fresh one. I share. But this one here. Only for me.
Probably a healthy thing. I don´t care. It´s just a very strong feeling I have. And so I listen to my heart. As always.
Check it out online if you are curious. Simply amazing, both visually and text wise. Oh, let me actually see if I can find a photo of it, hang on. (Hahaha… as if this is a radio show or phonecall. But. Hang on anyways)!
Yeah. All pictures are there, so just go cruise and enjoy the images… So many attractive decks to see, actually. I shall spend time to get to know this one now, before I treat myself to more decks. I also bought an oracle deck by Kyle Grey. Also exciting. Lots of learning to receive from that one.
Okay. Back to those videos I talked about. Here´s one by Abraham Hicks. Where we can see Esther. This is just a random video, I haven´t even seen it yet. I have watched/listened to several hundred of the Hicks videos on youtube these last 2-3 years. So I know for sure that whatever comes from Abraham, I will agree with and feel uplifted by. Such a gift for me to have this source of inspiration. Very grateful.
Another “friend of mine” though we´ve never met (to my knowledge, this present lifetime), is Wayne Dyer. Read many of his books, watched his film the Shift, and watched him on youtube… Here´s a guided meditation. Actually he uses the sound AAAAAH…. just like I have learnt from Githa, to allow Light through, to silence the channel or. Which words to use. Wayne mixes the sound with affirmations here. I shall try this one. Every morning? With 3 kids, that´s a bit unrealistic. But Let me give it a go. Right now, it could possibly be doable every morning when I arrive home from delivering the youngest in kindergarten.
Right. Very enjoyable to sit here in bed and type away about my February Hibernation.
I´m curious and excited to see what March holds in store for me. Hopefully still lots of pockets of time for me to focus inward. And to keep developing my social circle of local individuals who fit into my tribe of listening, compassionate, authentic being.
Actually on 8. of March I´m participating in the first Women´s Justice Day (What is it called in English?), I shall read out a poem that came to me 02 am the other night. Woke up and wrote it down. As I often do. Quite a fantastic piece, I love it. And don´t claim to have any honour in creating it, I just allowed it to come through me.
Also, 13. of March I´m participating in the start of local group of the green party. “Alternativet Fanø”. As you may know from previous posts, we got into the town council with one mandate, and took the seat of the mayor! So this is a very… exciting, new position we´ve landed in, and I´m eager and enthused about building this movement stronger.
Further, March stores my son´s 6.birthday. A weekend in a summerhouse with my husband’s bigband, 17 musicians and their partners and children. Truely wonderful people. Party band, plays cover versions of hits from 60s-80s. Three singers, brassline… that´s gonna be one big happy family dance party, I expect. (We´ve traveled with the band to Florida in 08 and to Spain in 14, so. I know what I´m talking about here). 🙂
A week after that trip, we actually go to Berlin for easter. Staying in UFA Fabrik. An old factory that has been turned into an alternative township or. Yeah. Hitler´s old cinema is there. Still functioning as cinema. That thrills me. As the nazis, in all their horror alien like evil, understood some things about the power of film, before others did. And used it for evil. Of course. But. Yeah. To go there and experience that space will be specil to me. Love that the place now is run as a kind of hippie community, with their own school, no cars, a bakery, a guesthouse, farm animals, tons of creative workshops…
So. March will give a heap of social gatherings, I realize. And I shall make sure I also find time to go within. And digest all the new impressions. I feel this is a time for the right people to get together, hook up and be connected. Don´t know why I feel that. But I often understand these kinds of feelings in retrospect.
Anyways. Let me finish with a kool song, then.